Embrace your future

I am a big fan of Horoscopes actually. Yet, am not that obsessed person who is not taking any step out of my place befor checking out my horoscope. I was reading today in hotmail website and my luck for today was telling me that it is effictive to move toward your future without keeping an old objects stuck with you.

 

"Discard those items from the past for which you really no longer have use. As much as you like to surround yourself with objects of sentimental value, the time comes when it's necessary to look to the future rather than dwell on the past. The time spent cleaning your home and throwing out extraneous things will release you from the past and allow you to embrace the future"

Its quite true that i have collecting stuff disorder and i dont want to call it hoarder problem its not that worse. I dont know since when i have started that. I have been keeping stuff like, old school exams, advertisements for some programs that i might go to, scrap papers that i used for study one day, news papers and magazinse. Im not sure about the reasons for that it could be for secure feeling or for more controling of things in your life but im sure that its hard.Persons with this problem might experience; anxiety, uncomfortable feeling or even failed attempts to sleep at night.

Im not going to talk about the reatment for this disorder but i want to say that gething rid of useful feelings and stuff not just important to your place but also to your soul, it will gives you the feeling of purity and "every thing under control". Lots of peoples stuck with thier past and dont know what to do about it, so this is the time to do it and live freely.

when happiness vanished

 How strange for your happiness moments turn upside down immediately. This spring I decided to visit Vancouver for few days after finishing the final exams. It’s very nice city unlike Winnipeg the most things I like is the crowed and noise especially in weekends. I got my results for the three courses for this semester couple days ago and every joy moment vanished and now the all I can see is unclear picture for my life and future for woman in Saudi Arabia. The good news is I passed them all but the sad thing is one of the courses I really did badly on it I didn’t expect this result. Maybe someone said at least you pass them all!! NO.
I’m special student in premaster program and it has been requested from me to have the highest mark to be eligible for the master program but now I’m very worry especially when the professor asks me to set an appointment to discuss the updating in my school performance. My days in Vancouver become boring and I want to come back to Winnipeg very fast to figure out what is going on and look for another solution to continue my study anywhere in Canada.

Lost Memories

Dear God, I know I need long time to achieve what I want to be, or simply what makes me satisfied about my crazy life. I was so sad when I started studying in agricultural collage specifically in foods and nutrition school from a long time ago (about five years ago). I felt that was not my fate! That wasn’t me; end up as a home economic "often fat" teacher in high school somewhere in Saudi Arabia. All makes jokes on home economic teachers with common thoughts. For example, home economic teacher are not in important position "they are silly, love to eat too much, and not sexy at all". Day by day, minutes by minutes in this collage with that voice growing inside my head”you will be something different". In recent years of school I recognized that I’m learning something great. I understand that nutrition have changed my life, I lose about 25 KG from my weight and I really want to change others life through foods and nutrition. I have never imagined that I can travel to Canada for continuing my education but now my prophecy come true. The more time I spend in school the more I feel I’m in the right place.

Thanks



Daughter of Arabia

Tank fish

I was sittingg on my brown couch blaming myself about delaying cleaning my fish tank.

It may live longer if i just move my butt and clean it

the fish will look more healthy ... swim around.

but its too late now I was so busy to do that. Every time i told myself thats ok i will do it later.

the time passing 

the wall clock go Tik Tak Tik Tak Tik Tak

The fish swimming in the bottom of the tank and stuck near the porcelain mermaid sometimes. My heart start beating faster i felt that somthing gonna happen to my sweet fish.

The water was very dirty, cloudy, and fishy. I decided to start cleaning so i asked my brother for some help, once we done cleaning the tank we found the fish died. It was a sad moment for me i couldnt through my fish in the garbage and ask my brother to do that instead.

It is gone because i forgot or delayed to clean the tank of my fish but what if my own tank have not be cleaned for whatever reason. Every person i think in some how living in a fish tank and need to clean it from time to time to get rid of the significant miss that we did every moment. Is it possible to end up like me fish, stuck at the bottom and waiting for help from someone special to do that. That is make me feel scared littel bit.